On my extremely vivid night terror

Oh, hey blogosphere.  It’s been awhile.  I apologize for my brief absence, but I’ve been low on inspiration lately.  Until today, that is.  The horrific episode that interrupted my otherwise peaceful slumber last night should suffice as inspiration enough.

Let me set the stage for you – be forewarned, my dreams have a tendency to favor the inexplicable and bizarre…: It’s 3:30 a.m., and I’ve just made my nightly trip to the restroom.  Yes, sometime between my 25th and 26th year I developed the inability to sleep through an entire night without relieving myself.  I am a five year-old.  Or an elderly person.  You decide.

Anyway, I crawl back into bed after this intolerable yet inevitable ritual, which usually ends in me colliding with a wall or door frame, whispering an expletive and waking my disoriented puppy who gives me a disapproving stare, confirming her deduction that I am a bumbling buffoon.  My husband does not wake, but rather rolls over with a grunt and a snore.  In minutes, I have returned to dreamland.  I find myself in my childhood bedroom, with its bubblegum pink walls and set of twin beds, Barbie dolls strewn about the floor.  I’ve just barely registered my surroundings when the walls melt away and the beds rise up, transforming into massive sand dunes.  What was once my whitewashed bookshelf has folded itself outward into an oversized sandy staircase, descending from the height of the evaporated ceiling.  The stairs are the width of doors and become presently inhabited by a multitude of tanned spectators adorned in black tunics, the women’s faces barely visible through headscarves.

“Where am I?” I wonder.  It would appear I am accidentally in attendance for some ancient foreign hero’s entombment.  “Am I in Egypt?  The Middle East?  India?”  The sobs of the mourners are deafening and distracting to the point that I almost miss the sight of a bejeweled altar materializing at the foot of the stairs.  Atop this altar is a long golden silk pillow, on which rests the lifeless body of said hero, wrapped in shining cloths.  I am at first too mesmerized by this curious scene to be afraid.  The man looks so majestic in his death garb, and those grieving around me are teeming with passion.  Then it occurs to me: there is a corpse in my desert bedroom.  This is going to be a problem.  During my moment of realization, the mourners file down to the altar, now carrying fiery torches.  They encircle the body and proceed to touch their torches to his cloth wrappings.  In seconds, he is engulfed in flames.  I begin to plan my escape, but, as is often characteristic of dreams, as soon as I’ve figured out my next move, the scene has dissipated.

I am once again in my childhood bedroom.  The walls have returned to their original pink.  There is no giant staircase.  The beds are beds again.  Everything is normal.  Except for one thing: to my horror, on one of the twin beds lies the corpse, its cloth wrappings scorched and slowly unraveling to expose charred, decaying flesh.  I am terrified.  I inch my way to the door, willing myself invisible, only to find that I am locked inside.  Suddenly I am overcome with fatigue and, to my own confusion, I find myself walking toward the other bed and collapsing onto it.  I am an arm’s length from the now uncovered, smoking body of a nameless, ancient man, the sight of whom repels and unnerves me.  My instinct tells me to run, but I feel a heavy weight on my chest preventing me to do so.

In my paralysis, I witness the corpse morph into the figure of my own sister.  Clouded by smoke, for a moment, I fear that she too is deceased, but she eerily rotates her head on the pillow to face me, revealing frightened eyes.  Like me, she is unable to move, and I sense that she sees something behind me – something horrible.  Her gaze is intense, and she becomes abruptly wide-eyed.  She vanishes.  In that moment, I feel a firm grip on my wrist and an even heavier weight on my chest, prompting me to scream, but no sound emerges from my mouth.  I begin to panic, trying furiously to move my body and make myself heard.  Finally I am able to muster a “Help!” which leaves my lips much louder than I anticipated, waking me with a jolt.

I awake to my husband’s hand nudging my wrist, whispering to me to wake up and telling me that everything is okay.  I am drenched in sweat and shaking uncontrollably.  I pant as if I’ve just been chased.  My eyes glance around the darkened room half-expecting to see an unwelcome image from my dream.  My husband, of course, has fallen back asleep immediately, though I continue to tightly grip his hand.  The following morning he has no recollection of my nightmare.

This is one of the several times that I’ve experienced a night terror accompanied by sleep paralysis.  While the dream itself was frightening, it was my inability to move or speak that caused me to panic.  In the past when this has occurred, I’ve realized that I’m dreaming and managed to bring myself out of it, but this time reality brought itself into my dream.  When I thought I’d been gripped by a ghost, it was actually Scott gently holding my wrist, causing me to scream aloud, thus ending the paralysis.  I’m no expert on this phenomenon, but I’ve been affected by it frequently enough to have done a little research.  While fascinating, it can cause some serious anxiety!  If you’ve ever experienced an episode like mine, I would love to hear your story!

 

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5 comments

  1. Wow.  You have a new fan and a new follower!
    That was beautifully written.  It was so vivid that you had me fearing what was about to happen everytime the scene shifted.
    To be perfectly honest, your words formed such a perfect little horror film in my mind, that I truly can’t tell if you wrote a short story, or recounted an actual dream.
    Please clarify…is this a piece of creative fiction, or is it actually a nighmare you had?
    Either way, you are a VERY GIFTED WRITER!
    If indeed, you recounted a nightmare – “dream” is far too civilized a term to use in this case – then you have my sincere sympathy.  I too, have experienced nightmare induced sleep paralysis several times.
    Thankfully, I am seldom able to recall many details of such ‘mares.  And the few times I do, they fade away in minutes.  That’s probably a blessing for me in another way…
    Being a chronic insomniiac for the last 30 years, I’m pretty sure the men in white coats would have come for me years ago!
    For your sake, I hope these extreme ones don’t strike you too often…
    Even if they do provide the raw material for gereat writing!  (Again, if was an actual dream.)
    I’ve got to go now, but I am eagerly looking forward to returning and reading through the rest of yout site.
    Cheers 🙂  ^~^

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words! My story was actually based on a sleep paralysis inducing nightmare I’d had the night before. Luckily these don’t happen too frequently! I hate that you’ve had to endure similar experiences over the years, but it’s nice to meet someone who can relate 🙂 Thanks for reading, and I will be sure to check out your site as well!

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  2. Your welcome. 🙂

    And yikes! That must have scared the bejeebers out of you… :0. I’m happy to hear the frequency of such dreams are rare for you as well. Phew.

    You’re not by any chance related to Stephen King, are you? Lol. 😉

    It’s very nice to meet you as well!

    Hope you sleep well tonight. 🙂

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  3. Ahh! Thanks for posting this! I get night terrors, although I’ve never had the paralysis. They always scare me so much and I always end up being woken up by my fiance. So nice to know I’m not alone!! 🙂

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    1. I’m sorry to hear that you’ve experienced them, too! They’re certainly not fun, but it’s always nice to wake up and realize it was just a dream! 🙂 Thanks for reading!

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